Life from the perspective of a sleep deprived student

Life is complicated I've decided. And as a teenager ( let alone a girl teenager) it can be hard. When I'm home I'm one person. I'm a child again and I do what I'm told. I follow the rules not because I choose but because there's no other choice. When not at home I'm responsible. At school I'm like an adult. I go where I'm supposed to by my own choice and I do my assignments when I choose. Students have a different life at school. Who they associate with. What activities they're in. Where they go and what they do is up to them. Now we know the consequences. Good things come from good choices... etc. But it's different. So that's one complication in our lives.

Another is boys ( or likewise girls). For me boys = drama. I swear they are more dramatic about somethings than us( and we get the bad rap). School is full of " who likes them...?"s " oo that's too bad why doesn't he like you?"s "why does he like her instead?"s and " does he like me?"s. So to add on to the 4 hours of English, 2 of CP chem, 1 of Math, 1 1/2 Of french and the odds and ends of projects, we have the constant bombardment on our self-esteem of trying to figure out the opposite gender ( a course not offered at my school).

Then there's just friends in general. Backstabbing, hushed whispers behind closed doors. "who likes who"s and why. We never learned the lesson of gossiping and being too curious that adults seem to expect us to know. we live in a world where every event is fair game.

But life is good.

I have the best friends in the world. I have a very complicated system of friends but I have it figured out. And everything is good. Worries will fade in time. Stress will melt away. these will be replaced I'm sure but for now? LIFE IS GOOD. LIFE IS WONDERFUL. LIFE IS A GIFT. don't waste it. don't insult the Giver by wasting it.

I may have family problems, but so does everyone. I have trials. Everyone does.

The reason Ive learned this?
LIGHT

I joined a group this year. They are my family. Ive met my people! Singing. Dancing. Laughing. But most importantly, Ive learned friendship. Ive learned that the Savior is ALWAYS there for me. Can you imagine that? ALWAYS. contemplate that. The Gospel is here. The Gospel is TRUE. And I have it. How blessed am I?

I am a sister. I am a daughter. I'm an aunt, musician, purple lover, chocolate eater and friend. I am a lover not a fighter, but i will fight for love. I am a reader, a writer, a poet and I am unique. I'm an AP and CP student. I am willing to help. I am a testimony holder. I am a listener. I am a speaker. I am loud and obnoxious and loyal. I am a Mormon.

catchup or ketchup?

so since that incident with the birthday i have been doing many a thing:

example A: ALICIA'S BDAY

Ok so on June 25th my best friend Alicia turned the great and holy age of 16 haha so of course we HAD to do SOMETHING haha

so at 5:30 in the morning me and Celine got into the car... ( the night before she came over and we made muffins and danced around and eventually slept. thats right a sleepover... my mom allowed it haha this time) and drove over to Alicia's house where her mom was waiting ( we coordinated with her) to open the door and let us in. she video taped everything haha... anyway we went into her room ( Alicia's not Sis Ferrin) and blind folded her and dragged her out of bed haha then took her to the door

haha thats us : me, Alicia and Celine

we proceeded to my house for muffins and fruit haha lets just say my new nickname is Mac Celines Cheese and Alicia's victim haha a couple of other ppl were at the house and it was real fun.

Example B.... ALICIA'S REAL BDAY BASH!

So later on i went to Austins party( see above) onto Alicia's. it was real fun and we danced and partied and played Just Dance 2 and TWISTER haha

Let the good times rollllll!

so yesterday was my good friend Natalie's 16Th bday so i decided i was going to surprise her with a cake ( gluten free)! i told Nathan about this and him along with Bryson and Antonio showed up to help. soon both Alicia and Celine both were at my house too! then somehow Ivy showed up too! hehe partay!!! so we made the cake and a poster then were about to leave when it dawned on me that we were all riding with Nathan. in his 3 passenger truck. naturally my friends and i take this as a challenge! we fit all of in then took off... oh the looks we got...
then when we got there me and Antonio and bryson ninja'd around a while til the others showed up and then we went and surprised Natalie :) she was thrilled!!!

above right: the girls hanging on the truck

to the left: the landyard buddies ( eventho Ivy's is really mine)

top right: Alicia got on the ground and everyone piled!



So this is us: Bryson, Ivy, Celine, ME, Antonio, Nathan and Aliciaand thats the birthday girl! Natalie!
then after all that madness me and celine came back to my house where we talked and ate pizza and Tilly became an alien:

IT BEGINS!

Summer is finally here! and here it will stay til like november... but break wont last that long. but me and my friends are determined to not let that hinder us!

The day after school got out for us, our good friend Brsyon was let out of his educational prison ( haha suckkker!) and he decided to hold a summer party! we started with a foodfight :

BEFORE:

from top left to top right: Bryson, Jordan, April, Valerie, Abbeney, Antonio, Lindsey,Me and Avel

from bottom left to bottom right: Brysons little sis malory, Angela, Ivy, Alyssa, (top) Hannah, Celine, and Natalie

AFTER:

from top to bottom ( left to right): Ivy, Jordan Malory,April, Alyssa, Abbeney, Antonio, Hannah me, Natalie, Angela, Avel, Nathan, Bryson, Celine and Lindsey

Then after that we hosed off ( TOOK FOREVER!) Then dove into the pool! after a good swim we decided to start our bonfire! we burned all the good and bad stuff from school this past year! it was satasfying :

So the party was a success im proud to say :) yay to summer!!!!

Graduationnnn

The clock slowly moans its way heartbreakingly slow towards the 12:20 mark. the students hold their breath collectively as the teacher rambles on about school not ending til that time... then not soon enough the bell starts to ring its melodious chime. SCHOOL IS OUT! finally! the thing every student has been looking forward to since school began! the end, the glorious end!

but wait...

for all the musicians its not over. the last bell may ring but our grades are not set in stone until late that night. GRADUATION. the ceremony to end a students high school career. at my school we sing or play all the music at this monumental occasion. so tho we may moan and groan this is our true end. the caps are thrown. SUMMER BEGINS!!!!!

me and Celine wait til all the names are read....

me and nicala... they grow up so fast...

Sweetcakes

so a few weeks ago i got the awesome opportunity to go perform at a small little diner called Sweetcakes. i got a 15 min set and me and my friend Briana did a duet and then we each had a solo. hers was amazing as normal for her. mine was a little different. i was performing a single called Everything to Me by none other then myself. this was my first time performing both this song and the first time performing a song i wrote. to say i was nervous was a great understatement. but knowing that i did it and having some of my close friends there( even tho my parents were in Germany at the time) was an extraordinary feeling. I'm so glad Celine talked me into doing it.

( sorry a little fuzzy) thats Celine playing for me

my life as i know it

I am a member of The Church of Latter Day Saints. Christ is my brother. He is my best friend; the only one that i can talk to about every thing ( well except my Father of course). which means that i am a literal Daughter of God Himself. I am a princess. and I'm not perfect. i don't always act the way a princess should. nor do people always treat me as one. but that is what i am. i believe in everything that the Church teaches. though some of it is hard for me to follow i try my hardest to follow the doctrine word for word. The prophet Thomas S Monson is a true prophet of God. He is never going to lead us astray.

One thing that has bothered me of late is the doctrine of modesty. and the way some people keep it. I am aware of how hard it is to keep. Some of latest fashions follow the exact opposite of what we are taught but i know for a fact that we are being blessed so much for following this doctrine. And that means following it completely. Sleeves included. Modest is Hottest!

Cursing is also been a huge problem. The language we use at school or work or with our friends should be the same as we would use if we were speaking to Christ or Heavenly Father. No cussing or mean words. No exceptions. Keep it to yourself. If You Cant Think of Anything Nice to Say Don't Say Anything at All!

RECAP!

ok i havent been on here in FOREVER! my life is so different. we went thru a space with no computer but now that that's fixed i'll have to write more... the holidays are already passed and now im 16 :) yay. ive been on two dates one being a dance and we now have 5 grandkids so yeah...

About the rest of the choir things I was in this last week:

the concert: I have never even been to a high school choir before so it was a bit overwhelming but fun. we kind of got confused with some standing orders and some people sat in our seats so we were stuck in the back but it was still fun. I loved listening to all the different choirs. this will be the only time this year that all the choirs will be in one concert so it was nice to hear. and I was glad to hear them so I could pick which choirs I may want to be in next year. after the concert we went out to apple bees with Heidi and Chris and their little ones. It was good.
festival: the next day we went to a festival in chandler. we performed really well and the guy that came and critiqued us really thought we did well. he knew our director and they kind joke fighted the whole time. and because the boys weren't there i turned pages at the piano with my friend rella. it made me feel important. :) then after that we all got on the bus and drove to where they would drop us off for lunch. none of us knew where we were going so that was interesting. and we all got dressed on the bus! Ive never done it before and didn't think that i would but apparently i do have those skills. ok so they dropped us off and we had an hour. so a group of friends and i walked over to apple bees ( yes I did have it two meals in a row) ( yes I had the same thing) and had a very nice lunch. then about 10 min before we had to be on the bus ( yes they would leave us) we ran over to jack in the box for shakes. ( yes they were good. yes they made me sick cuz i was full) then we drove to school. we got to school a half hour earlier then was expected but we didn't want to go to class so we ( me and my friends) walked around and i finished my homework i hadn't done :) then onto class..

too bad

ok I feel bad. I was planning on doing auditions. I promise I was. hehe k so on Thursday night I realised that the jazz choir auditions were the next day and I didn't know the song! dang eh? yeah well I tried and tried but after all I just didn't feel good about it so I knew I wouldn't be doing auditions this weekend. so my next trial was telling my director. eekkk ok so this year in chorus is called the audition year because we have to be in the sophomore choirs but next year they choose which choir we're in. so everything we do this year is going to say something to the directors you know? no pressure or anything! so when I realised I had to tell him this I was terrified! I started thinking of ways to do it or to just not do it and not show up. but that thought didn't last long. I knew that I couldn't live with that. as much as it scared me to have to say something like this to me I knew that that's not who I am. and what wouldn't he think of me then? so I debated for two days and finally went to him yesterday. fully expecting the disappointed look and a speech. but when I told him why I couldn't do it ( big projects at school I wasn't expecting and all the family things this last week) he totally understood and all he said about it was that he'd call them and let them know. and smiled at me. SMILED! hehe I'm so lucky to have a conductor like him and I love being in his class!

blessing

k so this weekend my oldest brother and his family are coming in town to bless their youngest daughter. autumn and joel are also in town as of yesterday to meet this new addition to the family. so that means all the glidewell clan will be here. this hasn't happened since my birthday and even then we didnt have christine here with us yet. I'm so excited to meet her and to spoil lexi until they leave. bradys about to be an older brother and having all the babies here i think will help the transition. wow this weekends goin to rock.

then next Tuesday i have my fist official chorus concert at mvt! im sooooo excited. even tho i don't have any big important parts I'm excited cuz this is the first concert in a long while that i will be singing with all my strength and might. i just hope someone comes and sees me...

then the next day we have a festival that mr shrieber is taking us too. normally the most adv group goes but he decided to take us instead! isnt that awsome! so i miss practically all of school that day! yayayaay! but then we come back for 5th and 6th hour which happen to be math and science. bummer right? well i guess then i don't have to make them up so its ok..

then that weekend i have auditions for Allstate jazz choir. im freaking out! and its the same day as conference! dang!!!! right? wrong. my director as awesome as he is called the ppl up who are in charge of Allstate jazz things and told them what was up. he had them open up a night just for us! hes so good to us! yayayay! so yeah... music can finally take prominence now that this stupid book report is done! yayayayay!

on a better note

k so I'm officially pouring every part of me into my music ( like i wasn't doing that before). my piano is getting really good and I'm working on it continuously. I'm currently learning two songs ( one she assigned me the other I'm learning on my own to impress my teacher). chorus in high school has been so cool. its so different then in Jr high. I'm not afraid to sing out and be a "color voice". this means i have a big voice that projects awesomely. my family already knows I'm loud but surprisingly enough most everyone else doesn't. they think of me as 'quiet'. weird huh? yeah. so this year my goal is to sing out and be my self in chorus. along with my always goal to get all the solos and be a well known artist at my school. I'm working on it. Mr shrieber ( my chorus teach) really likes outgoing ppl so I'm trying out for EVERYTHING :) its goin to be great. I'm currently working on a solo for a tryout for something called all state jazz choir. for all those who have never heard of this it is a choir that high schooler from all over the sate of AZ come and audition for. its a huge deal if you make it in because there are only 20 ppl in this choir that means that there is only 5 bases( low men's voices) 5 tenors( higher men voices) 5 altos ( lower women's) and 5 soprano( high women) with me being a soprano. see sop is goin to be especially hard to get in since there are so many of us. oh and I'm only a sophomore so that's a added hardness. and i have like zip experience with jazz. but that's not keeping me from trying. I'm sooo excited. yay! moms also goin to get me voice teacher which I'm excited for! yay!

all alone

yesterday i started thinking while i was alone. times like that never are good. i started thinking of my disappointments. my lost dreams and my hopes that i knew were never going to be. naturally i started getting depressed. i missed my cousin, my sister, my nieces and nephew and i was mad at my friends. right when i was getting to the crying part my mom came in. she stared to bug me to get me smile. then she just talked to me. Ive missed that. we've both been so busy, with both of our callings. i eventually told her why i down. i told her one of the reasons Ive been going to the temple so much ( to avoid my alone time and boredom and friends) and she told me i couldn't just not have friends. she said i was born to have friends. that i needed them. i got all defensive and hurt but in reality its true. I'm so glad i have a mom that isn't afraid to tell me things like that even tho it hurt. I'm also glad i have friends that are willing and worthy to go to the temple with me when i need to. i love them so much and am so grateful for them. :)

school

school has started. yay! even though i was terrified to start at a new school it has been way easier then i expected and i am so grateful to have the friends i do to help me thru it. so far its been okay...

ok so you know how my sis has been here for the past couple of months? yeah so i was just about sick of having her here when it hit me that she wouldn't be here for much longer. i have not always had a great relationship with her and even though its been weird to be on talking terms with her I'm getting used to it and surprising enough enjoying it. yesterday my sister and her daughter ( aka my little baby) left to go back to Washington. its so weird not having them here and i miss them like crazy but i guess I'll have to dredge up the strength to go on. oh well...

so this Thursday in chorus we're having a party of sorts. I'm soooooo excited! its the annual choir shindig!!!!! yeah! ( yes that's its official name!) most of friends are in chorus with me so they'll be there. and most of those who aren't are still in chorus so they'll be there too. including most of my guy friends... including a really good guy friend;)! again i say I'm soooo excited!

so me and my sister while she was here went on a diet. now i know your thinking of starving yourself and sugar withdrawals but let me tell you it actually worked. at first when she told me she wanted to do it i said no way! are you kidding me? Hallie on a diet? me on a diet? please! but then i started thinking bout it. i was about 2 weeks from starting high school, terrified of high school, and wanting the boys( of course) to notice me. so whats a girl to do? well so i decided to do it. ( after some begging from autumn of course) ok so this thing is called hcg diet. weird huh? yeah so its a natural diet that resets your metabolism. that's why it works! i lost like 17 pounds on it. in 2 weeks! and now my metabolism is reset and way faster so all in all it worked great ( except that my brand spanking new buckle jeans( yes Heidi and autumn have converted me to buckle) are big on me :() so yeah... hehe

oregon

Imagine a green, dark and full as a Christmas tree; now remember a green as light and airy as a spring day in grandma's back yard, picking apples laughing. Now imagine the yellow I see - the yellow that makes you grin, sunshiny, that makes the world happy, now imagine those colors and feelings mixing and mingling with red tips coming to view. This is what I see. This is my view.

i wrote this in Oregon on the drive up the coast. its so beautiful up there!

from left to right: madelyn, zane, lexi, tanner. bottom: left to right: taylor,alex,tanner, zane

HERE YA GOOO...

to the left: ( left to right) Dannika my roommate, Holly my counselor

the right: top: zach, bottom left: nick, bottom right: kale

efy

wow this was my first year of EFY and it was amazing. ( for those of you who don't know know what EFY is its this: especially for youth) i went to Provo BYU campus for this year. my roommate was Dannika. it was sooo fun. we met a lot of good people who i hope will be my friends for a long while. we had amazing classes and dorms( lets get this straight: everything was amazing) it was really cool getting to know the campus and living in dorms me and Dannika kept saying we were students and we really did feel independent. our counselors were really cool too. they helped a lot with everything. all in all it was, yes you guessed it, AMAZING! out company's name was Por Que??? hehe yeah it was awesome :)

1st month

the last day of school : after school we all went over tomy friends house and partied! we had a huge food fight with all kind of gross stuff. ewww ( pudding, whipped cream, macoroni salad, spam...etc) we got all gross than hopped in the pool we swam for a couple hours then went and had a huge bonfire. we set fire to all our school stuff. it was sooo fun smores came next then i went home and slept. ahhh felt good not to wake at 7 :)

on saturday mom left for caamp and i was officially the mom of the house. thats morning austin came and got me and ian and we slept over there that night. it was really fun. on sunday day came and had dinner with us then we went home.

monday mornin: i left for camp. that was really cool. we hiked like 15 miles and went cannoing
that was really fun. we came home on wed. a shower never felt so good ;) ian and dad left on monday of the next week for scout camp. a whole week with just mom and me. ( except for when austin comes ovr) that was a great week...