on a better note

k so I'm officially pouring every part of me into my music ( like i wasn't doing that before). my piano is getting really good and I'm working on it continuously. I'm currently learning two songs ( one she assigned me the other I'm learning on my own to impress my teacher). chorus in high school has been so cool. its so different then in Jr high. I'm not afraid to sing out and be a "color voice". this means i have a big voice that projects awesomely. my family already knows I'm loud but surprisingly enough most everyone else doesn't. they think of me as 'quiet'. weird huh? yeah. so this year my goal is to sing out and be my self in chorus. along with my always goal to get all the solos and be a well known artist at my school. I'm working on it. Mr shrieber ( my chorus teach) really likes outgoing ppl so I'm trying out for EVERYTHING :) its goin to be great. I'm currently working on a solo for a tryout for something called all state jazz choir. for all those who have never heard of this it is a choir that high schooler from all over the sate of AZ come and audition for. its a huge deal if you make it in because there are only 20 ppl in this choir that means that there is only 5 bases( low men's voices) 5 tenors( higher men voices) 5 altos ( lower women's) and 5 soprano( high women) with me being a soprano. see sop is goin to be especially hard to get in since there are so many of us. oh and I'm only a sophomore so that's a added hardness. and i have like zip experience with jazz. but that's not keeping me from trying. I'm sooo excited. yay! moms also goin to get me voice teacher which I'm excited for! yay!

all alone

yesterday i started thinking while i was alone. times like that never are good. i started thinking of my disappointments. my lost dreams and my hopes that i knew were never going to be. naturally i started getting depressed. i missed my cousin, my sister, my nieces and nephew and i was mad at my friends. right when i was getting to the crying part my mom came in. she stared to bug me to get me smile. then she just talked to me. Ive missed that. we've both been so busy, with both of our callings. i eventually told her why i down. i told her one of the reasons Ive been going to the temple so much ( to avoid my alone time and boredom and friends) and she told me i couldn't just not have friends. she said i was born to have friends. that i needed them. i got all defensive and hurt but in reality its true. I'm so glad i have a mom that isn't afraid to tell me things like that even tho it hurt. I'm also glad i have friends that are willing and worthy to go to the temple with me when i need to. i love them so much and am so grateful for them. :)

school

school has started. yay! even though i was terrified to start at a new school it has been way easier then i expected and i am so grateful to have the friends i do to help me thru it. so far its been okay...

ok so you know how my sis has been here for the past couple of months? yeah so i was just about sick of having her here when it hit me that she wouldn't be here for much longer. i have not always had a great relationship with her and even though its been weird to be on talking terms with her I'm getting used to it and surprising enough enjoying it. yesterday my sister and her daughter ( aka my little baby) left to go back to Washington. its so weird not having them here and i miss them like crazy but i guess I'll have to dredge up the strength to go on. oh well...

so this Thursday in chorus we're having a party of sorts. I'm soooooo excited! its the annual choir shindig!!!!! yeah! ( yes that's its official name!) most of friends are in chorus with me so they'll be there. and most of those who aren't are still in chorus so they'll be there too. including most of my guy friends... including a really good guy friend;)! again i say I'm soooo excited!

so me and my sister while she was here went on a diet. now i know your thinking of starving yourself and sugar withdrawals but let me tell you it actually worked. at first when she told me she wanted to do it i said no way! are you kidding me? Hallie on a diet? me on a diet? please! but then i started thinking bout it. i was about 2 weeks from starting high school, terrified of high school, and wanting the boys( of course) to notice me. so whats a girl to do? well so i decided to do it. ( after some begging from autumn of course) ok so this thing is called hcg diet. weird huh? yeah so its a natural diet that resets your metabolism. that's why it works! i lost like 17 pounds on it. in 2 weeks! and now my metabolism is reset and way faster so all in all it worked great ( except that my brand spanking new buckle jeans( yes Heidi and autumn have converted me to buckle) are big on me :() so yeah... hehe

oregon

Imagine a green, dark and full as a Christmas tree; now remember a green as light and airy as a spring day in grandma's back yard, picking apples laughing. Now imagine the yellow I see - the yellow that makes you grin, sunshiny, that makes the world happy, now imagine those colors and feelings mixing and mingling with red tips coming to view. This is what I see. This is my view.

i wrote this in Oregon on the drive up the coast. its so beautiful up there!

from left to right: madelyn, zane, lexi, tanner. bottom: left to right: taylor,alex,tanner, zane

HERE YA GOOO...

to the left: ( left to right) Dannika my roommate, Holly my counselor

the right: top: zach, bottom left: nick, bottom right: kale

efy

wow this was my first year of EFY and it was amazing. ( for those of you who don't know know what EFY is its this: especially for youth) i went to Provo BYU campus for this year. my roommate was Dannika. it was sooo fun. we met a lot of good people who i hope will be my friends for a long while. we had amazing classes and dorms( lets get this straight: everything was amazing) it was really cool getting to know the campus and living in dorms me and Dannika kept saying we were students and we really did feel independent. our counselors were really cool too. they helped a lot with everything. all in all it was, yes you guessed it, AMAZING! out company's name was Por Que??? hehe yeah it was awesome :)