long day...

so this morning i woke up freaking out! there is a thing called solo and ensemble. or regionals for those of you who don't know what that is... the solo part is just that a solo. you sing or play or whatever you do musically for a judge. he( or she) tells you how good you were then what you might have done wrong. ensemble is the same but its more the one person. regionals is an audition for the regional choir. its a session of sight reading then a solo. not that you care bout that but to fill you in. hehe so this morning i was freaking cuz i had a solo and a duet! ugh! stress. hehe so i left at 11:45. practiced with duet partner Breanna til 12:0, drove to highland high school ( for those of you who don't know the significance. its in another town and pretty far away) then had the duet at 1:30. hung around. encouraged friends. brown nosed teachers. til 2:20. then did my solo. i did really bad but you know. its experience. he told me i had a great voice. and to keep singing. i just need to practice breath support ( that's complicated singer talk for not breathing in the middle of words or when I'm not supposed to). Ive always had problems with that. anyway... rest of the day was boring and disappointing but right now I'm writing and eating brownies so its not too bad. oh well...

yes that is vasaline

ALYS PARTY

MORE OF ALYS PARTY

SCHOOL

Cool guys... real cool

"why school hasnt killed me off yet" - angela cava

from left to right: Hannah, Shannon, Me, Nana ( aka Natalie), Nathan, (blonde) Rella ( aka Breanna),(brunette)Angela, Ivy

school, masked balls, christmas party.. the usual

enjoy...

above: school... lunch what more can i say? above: christies bithday party. masked ball

far left: more of the party. above: school

What about life?

so I'm now 15. i had one gift i wanted for my birthday. i got it. everyone that i wanted there for my bday was there ( except cherry but you know...). i had a party about a week later. my friend janey pretty much did it all by herself. shes amazing. it was a hit with everyone. but me. i don't why but i kinda had a meltdown on my actual birthday night. its not the greatest thing but you know.... it was alright. i got over it. now I'm 15. yay...

school resumed with out me. 2 days before i actually came. and on that fateful day no less. my friend brought me lunch. and a bear. i named him butterscotch. i carried him everywhere all day. Brady loved him when i got home.

the next week tho was even more memorable. i could care less about my birthday. but on Sunday the 10th i got a gift that can never taken away. its mine. and only mine. my Father gave it to me thru a wonderful man. Patriarch Bawden is one of the sweetest men i have ever met. and what i felt there that day. theres no words. even for me. so many answers came to me that day. I'm no longer afraid of the future. i have opportunities in my life if i keep the commandments. just because I'm not scared doesn't mean i know what exactly is going to happen. because i don't. I'm not sure i ever will. life is going to continue tho. with or without me. why should i be afraid tho when i know that my Father loves me and will protect me? I'm now planning on serving a full time mission. but you know if my Father wants me to get married or heck get a job that doesn't give me the opportunity to go then that his will. but for now I'm planing. which means i should probably get going on personal progress. huh... interesting. sis Morris was right.