on a better note

k so I'm officially pouring every part of me into my music ( like i wasn't doing that before). my piano is getting really good and I'm working on it continuously. I'm currently learning two songs ( one she assigned me the other I'm learning on my own to impress my teacher). chorus in high school has been so cool. its so different then in Jr high. I'm not afraid to sing out and be a "color voice". this means i have a big voice that projects awesomely. my family already knows I'm loud but surprisingly enough most everyone else doesn't. they think of me as 'quiet'. weird huh? yeah. so this year my goal is to sing out and be my self in chorus. along with my always goal to get all the solos and be a well known artist at my school. I'm working on it. Mr shrieber ( my chorus teach) really likes outgoing ppl so I'm trying out for EVERYTHING :) its goin to be great. I'm currently working on a solo for a tryout for something called all state jazz choir. for all those who have never heard of this it is a choir that high schooler from all over the sate of AZ come and audition for. its a huge deal if you make it in because there are only 20 ppl in this choir that means that there is only 5 bases( low men's voices) 5 tenors( higher men voices) 5 altos ( lower women's) and 5 soprano( high women) with me being a soprano. see sop is goin to be especially hard to get in since there are so many of us. oh and I'm only a sophomore so that's a added hardness. and i have like zip experience with jazz. but that's not keeping me from trying. I'm sooo excited. yay! moms also goin to get me voice teacher which I'm excited for! yay!

all alone

yesterday i started thinking while i was alone. times like that never are good. i started thinking of my disappointments. my lost dreams and my hopes that i knew were never going to be. naturally i started getting depressed. i missed my cousin, my sister, my nieces and nephew and i was mad at my friends. right when i was getting to the crying part my mom came in. she stared to bug me to get me smile. then she just talked to me. Ive missed that. we've both been so busy, with both of our callings. i eventually told her why i down. i told her one of the reasons Ive been going to the temple so much ( to avoid my alone time and boredom and friends) and she told me i couldn't just not have friends. she said i was born to have friends. that i needed them. i got all defensive and hurt but in reality its true. I'm so glad i have a mom that isn't afraid to tell me things like that even tho it hurt. I'm also glad i have friends that are willing and worthy to go to the temple with me when i need to. i love them so much and am so grateful for them. :)